Well first things first. I spent about an hour and a half on the phone with my Uncle Bobby today. Despite all the bad in my immediate family over the last almost year now, it's nice that I'm getting back in touch with the rest of them. Sadly it's taken something like this for it to happen, but I feel so incredibly blessed and happy that I have my family back, and we're all becoming close again.
It's just more of the same waiting game. Waiting for Wednesday, waiting for next Monday. Ugh. It's driving me crazy. I downloaded The Eagle's "Take it Easy" some time ago in an attempt to remind myself to chill. "Don’t let the sound of your own wheels, Drive you crazy" sounds like me. I'm always worrying about something: money, legal processes, food, where the heck am I going to go in a city in a foreign country so I'm not sleeping on the streets? XD (Sleeping on the streets is something I lashed out about a lot over the last few months, but I guess sometimes I actually make fun of myself for being so close to that option. Nothing else so I can cope) But in the same token, most of my questions have been answered with a simple email or Google search. I found out I'll be about half a block from a bank, a block from a tram station, and about a 15 minute drive from Kehl, Germany (all that info thanks to Google Earth).
Brandon and I swapped going away gifts today. I put together a scrapbook of us, and some song lyrics that I felt portrayed our relationship, and pictures of us over the years. There only ended up being maybe a quarter of the pages I wanted to do, done, but I was running short on time and money. Some of the pages were definitely very Erika styled pages, others were more Brandon styled, and the very last one was just over all symbolic of the situation we'll be in. I have to say I was proud of what I did. I'd never scrapbooked before, but it's looking like it could become a regular hobby once I come back. :-D
He got me a baby Horde windrider plushie (WOW stuff lol), which was adorable. My main was a Blood Elf warlock, and I tend to prefer the Horde anyway. And the whole me going overseas, it made the gift. So now I have a baby windrider, watching over me as I cross the Atlantic. ^_^ I have no idea what to name the little dude though. lol.
I got to see my little dudes, Caleb and Preston, the other day as well. Debbie and I took them to a park, and played, then went to McDonald's and got them dinner. Curses to those little ones for making me consider motherhood. HAHA! No, maybe not that strong, but anytime I'm around them, the biological clock starts ticking (OMG I NEVER THOUGHT THAT WOULD BE AN ISSUE AT 24!!! ok rant over). They're sweeties though. They got to see Brandon's dog, Penny, and played with her. It was ADORABLE. Debbie took a million pictures, and I can't wait til she gets them loaded online. ^_^
But, back to the worry thing. I try not to worry TOO much, as I know once I get there everything'll work itself out. I mean, I would LOVE to get a job and make some money on the side just to feel better about my situation. But at the same time, I know a lot of these worries can't be hashed out until I get there. And some not for a few more days. So what is, is, and I frankly can't worry too much at this point.
I'm just trying to keep it cool until I have to be in court. Once that happens, it's all downhill from there. Lots of unneeded stress, but i have to handle this first.
Anyway, it's 4 am and I should really be in bed. <3
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