Bon Anniversaire a MOI! ^_^

So as it's my birthday weekend, I should totally update, right? ;) I've been meaning to all week, but I haven't had the chance to.

Bad parts first (because I'm the type that likes to leave on a high note). I've been super stressed with school lately, be it being able to get my butt up and get to school in the AM, or knowing even WHERE or WHEN my classes are (one of the dates got changed, and I missed 2 classes, as I had no idea where to go or when). And then note taking, finals schedules, studying, blah blah blah. It's been tough. It's such a different system here, which I'm not criticizing, but it's not what i'm used to. It's to the point anymore where I hate school. No, seriously, I hate going to class. I haven't felt like this since I changed my degree. I loved school, loved my classes, everything. I mean ok I like some of my classes, and the profs are pretty cool, actually, but I hate sitting through class. Some more than others. I don't feel like I'm being taught, I feel like I'm being talked at and I have to type or scribble as much info as I possibly can. So that's all been weighing on me.

And of course the Almighty Dollar. Yep. Problems there too. Now before I rant too much, I know there's been some irresponsible spending or whatever on my behalf, but that said, I'm really mad now, because I'm out $300. First off, I've been trying to pay this damn credit card, without my dad paying what he owes me. Joy, right? There goes $150, and now i'm going to have to call them and say "look I can't afford this and here's why." Ugh, I'm NOT looking forward to this. Seriously. I'm stressed enough with my classes, I don't need to worry about paying my phone bill (I went on a phone plan, versus a prepay. They let me shut it off when I leave, and no extra charges. I went nuts this month on my phone bill, oops, but I think I got all the irresponsible texting done hahaha! Just staying within my plan now), and having food. But on a good note, I got a HUGE care package (2 boxes) from my aunt and uncle in Kentucky. I have food for a while now. INCLUDING CRUNCHY AND CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER! hahaha. And Ramen, and Chef Boyardee.

I got my paperwork for my OFII appointment. Thank God for that, finally. That's another thing that has me worried, paying for the medical exam. It's not that expensive, but, well, let's say that's how short on money I am right now. But I've said enough about that. I also should be hearing Tuesday afternoon about the editing job...FINALLY. Want to talk about a good solution...lol.

Ok, ok, ok, GOOD STUFF NOW!

I love how we match, yet look like a huge contradiction ahaha!

Last Saturday I went to a concert with Melinda, Ryan Cabrera and Boyce Avenue. Now, I admit I haven't listened to Ryan Cabrera since he was blonde and dating Ashlee Simpson when I was in high school, and I had never heard of Boyce Avenue, but I had a good time. I'm always down for new music, and since Melinda was nice enough to buy my ticket, sure why not?

Ryan was actually pretty decent, just him and his guitar. I don't know if it was this concert or what, but the French people were a bunch of sticks in the mud, just standing there. I had to get people cheering and clapping. Hahaha! I don't know how many times Melinda said I was "so loud" but hey! I go to shows to have fun. I mean geesh, Germans know how to have fun at shows, what the heck French people? hahaha! Like really, come on, it's a show you want to be at, HAVE FUN!!!!! Haha! Enough of my ranting! I did get a reaction out of Ryan though. It was pretty awesome actually...he made a comment about his "ghetto French" where I started giggling (and if you know how I giggle, you know how loud it was), and he looks around like, "Uh I dunno what the joke was but ok!" Oh my god, I felt bad because I wasn't laughing at him as in "haha you dumbass" I thought it was a fun little joke he made! It was humor! Of course though, did the French people laugh? Nope. *sighs* I'm gonna have to teach France about going to shows. For REAL! hahaha! I mean, all the insane stories I heard about French Tokio Hotel fans, I'm thinking I'm going to go and people are going to be excited and have fun. Not be the crazy people like I mentioned, but excited at least. Geesh. What a disappointment. XD

But no he was a decent performer though, and I had fun listening to him. And the gig itself (La Laiterie) was small and intimate, kinda like the Acht show was. I love shows like that. You can actually connect to the people you're seeing, and not feel like one tiny face in a huge crowd.

So anyway, Boyce Avenue comes on, and I REALLY enjoyed them. They gave off this vibe of just being good people, and they were so clear, and it was just a really neat show to see. I started crying several times during the show, as some songs hit WAY close to home. One song, in particularly, Broken Angel, that Alejandro (their singer) even said was about a friend of his who seemed to always have a rough life, but now, she's able to use her bad experiences and help other people out. And another song, Briane, was written in memory of a friend's wife, who committed suicide. It was supposed to be what she would say, now, seeing her husband continue through his life. It made me think of what my mom might be saying now to me. I'm even tearing up now thinking about those songs.

But without being a Debbie Downer,  I had an overall VERY good time. After the show, we got to meet the band, and get autographs. Fabian (above pic, left) complimented my English. XD But then I was like "Oh hey I'm American!" So we talked for a sec about studying abroad. Very cool...not to mention he's a cutie. ;) (I'm still a sucker for a guy with a guitar...SHUSH) Then I got to mention the songs thing, and I got a hug from Alejandro (singer) and a "pat on the back" from Fabian. <3 I got Fabian's Autograph too (woot German moment...capitalizing nouns! hahaha!). It was an overall awesome night, and I'm really glad I went out.

Concert Afterglow

I crashed at Melinda's, and the next day we sat around doing homework. I'm pretty sure we randomly played "Out Of My Bed (Still In My Head)" more times than anyone SHOULD, just to break the silence and keep things from getting too serious. Hahahaha! I think "Tearin' Up My Heart" made an appearance too. XD Oh I love 90's pop sometimes...

The week was spent trying to motivate myself to get through my classes. I actually did ok, save for one, but I've been so stressed I wasn't sleeping very well. I really need to get myself to that class too...but I'll make that my goal for this week. Some of my classes were canceled too, so that doesn't count, but I'll make it to those too. I don't want my finals to end up being a disaster. I've been able to get some notes in classes I either have had a hard time with, or not been to, or missed. So this week = copying and saving notes, and all that. I really want to do well, at least get decent marks. This semester, for so many reasons, has been rough, so if I don't get perfect grades, fine. I just want to be able to pass. Next semester = stepping it up and doing better. Now that i have an idea of what's going on and what to expect, I can work with it better next semester.

My birthday went well. One of my friends, Mariela (she's from Bulgaria) met me for dinner at a Chinese place not too far from my dorm, then after Melinda and I went to a really nice place called "Pont Aux Chats." And, for the record, "chats" means cats, and well, with Brandon having nicknamed me Kitty, how convenient for my birthday? :D It was a good night. Not quite as goofy and crazy as last year (oh laughing and carrying on in the parking lot of IHOP with Brendan, Beth, Bosco, and Brandon...:D), but I'm just glad I had people who gave a shit enough to want to meet me and take me out for a night. :D

Anyway I better get going and finish getting ready. I'm meeting another girl from one of my classes and some of her friends this afternoon. Hopefully it'll be fun. <3

You showed him all the best of you
But I'm afraid your best
Wasn't good enough
And know he never wanted you
At least not the way
You wanted yourself to be loved
And you feel like you were a mistake
He's not worth all those tears that won't go away

I wish you could see that
Still you try to impress him
But he never will listen

Oh broken angel
Were you sad when he crushed all your dreams
Oh broken angel
Inside you're dying 'cause you can't believe

And now you've grown up
With this notion that you were to blame
And you seem so strong sometimes
But I know that you still feel the same
As that little girl who shined like an angel
Even after his lazy heart put you through hell

I wish you could see that
Still you try to impress him
But he never will listen

Oh broken angel
Were you sad when he crushed all your dreams?
Oh broken angel
Inside you're dying 'cause you can't believe
He would leave you alone
And leave you so cold
When you were his daughter
But the blood in your veins
As you carry his name
Turns thinner than water
You're just a broken angel

And I promise that it's not your fault
It was never your fault
And I promise that it's not your fault
It was never your fault. ..

Broken Angel by Boyce Avenue